So I figured I’d post some random poetry I’ve written over the years. Each one came from me when I was in different spaces in my life and the last one has some unclean words so if you don’t wanna know, don’t read it. You have been warned. Hope you enjoy….
“BEAUTIFUL”
….like chocolate silk draped across my skin…you can’t begin to imagine
how it feels to be touched by you… in all your splendor you awaken the
dragon of ecstasy that abides inside me…you come in so many lucious
colors, cafe au lait, caramel, milk chocolate, dark and bittersweet
midnight…all of which caress the nakedness of my fascination of you….
many have tried to understand the depths of the magnetism that has drawn
women of all flavors and destinations to you… can it be the way you
smile…..the way you laugh…the way you lick your lips to get my attention
…..they way you walk…..the way you let your presence known when you enter
my domain…..you know what you do to me….you know no one could ever take
your place…which is why I am uphold you…make you remember that you are
a shining star….a diamond in the rough…I will protect you inside of my
shadow….and you can draw from my essence to regain your strength as I will
always remain true to my beautiful black men….
“CONFUSION”
Confusion tears at my brain like a dying man’s final cling to life
I’ve never understood the complexities that exist within my mind
And chances are I never will
It’s a shame to admit that your well has run dry and all inspiration is gone
As if someone has flipped a light switch way in the back of your head
Killing the interaction that builds simple words into a complex thought
I sit here reflecting on all the things that make me unique and find that in many ways
I’m not much different than you
We are all connected by a common thread, the link which makes us remember the road more often traveled
By another who paved the way for us to journey stress free
But we always want to blaze our own trail regardless of the breadcrumbs left to guide us back home
Hard headed, my grandmother would call it, as I continually ran into the brick wall that blocked the path
To my destination
As I wait to be guided back a million situations are presented in such a fashion to seem so sweet
Silver tongues and chocolate lips send me messages that my heart wants to hear but my mind turns away
Everyday, all day I think about the things that make this heart tick
And I feel that slowly but surely all those things mean as much as the next
If you understand what I mean, can you explain it to me?
“I MISS YOU”
Can’t figure out why I didn’t see it before
Never looked past my front door, didn’t hear the score
You never miss something until it’s gone
But I miss you while you’re here
I miss the times we’ve spent
The laughs we shared
The love we made
Can’t get that out of my mind
Because I miss you while you’re here
You don’t have much time for me anymore
Have to schedule me in
Too many times to count
How did you expect me to feel about this
Was falling for you in a million different ways
Showered me with affection then followed that with rejection
It’s a shame that I miss you while you’re here
You can’t even look me in the eye
I used to cry then thought why
It’s not like you care anyway
I miss you while you’re here
Still can’t see what you saw in me
Someone to pass the time
To lose yourself in
Pleasure yourself in
Then
Move on?
Damn, why can’t I stop missing you
While you’re here
”HAD ME FOOLED”
I wonder how I didn`t see it before
funny thing is I had a thought
but paid it no mind
spent all this time
making the illusion real
much props to you
you had me fooled
Had a lot of fun
talked until the horizon was filled with sun
told me some things you wouldn`t tell a soul
I told you a few
truth be told
Wish I had seen it coming
everyday all day
slowly reduced to nothing
see the funny thing is I don`t believe you
couldn`t let the words fall from your lips direct to my ear
needed a screen to protect you
did you think I would cry
scream or yell?
I did cry, I won`t lie
cause the hurt was there
I must give you props though
handled the situation far better than I would
looked in my eyes, said what I wanted to hear
all the while you were passing the time
waiting for someone better to come along
well much props to you
had me fooled
Never could tell me how you felt
said you would one day
that day came and left
behind the screen you filled in all the blanks
funny thing was
didn`t even sound like you
a marionette`s song, someone else at your strings
someone else with your voice.
Did you get scared?
Did things feel too good?
had you thinking things you never thought you would
well I must admit
much props to you
had me fooled
Life goes on, it always does
I must admit the guard was down
at one time you said the same
but I see it all clearly now
Once again, the master of deception
the trophy you win, cause I didn`t get the connection
always and forever my props you have earned
cause you had me fooled.
“IF IT WAS MEANT TO BE”
If it was really meant to be, you would of kept it real from the start/Instead of playing childish games, you would of expressed what`s in your heart/If you wanted time alone, all you had to do was say it/
But instead you played games, and we both know how to play it/If someone called there for me, then it had to be my peeps/Cause I`d neva disrespect you, what about the time I got the beeps/
On your pager and you tell me,that they paged lookin for Kim/Like I was suppose to believe that tale, now your trust has gotten dim/And everything after that you said, I just really doubted/
And when I tried to bring it up, you didn`t wanna talk about it/So that`s the reason I chose to kick it, and watch the Tyson fight/Either that, or sit at home while we fuss or fight all night/If you cared for me so much, you have a funny way of showin it/If you got plans of reconciling…I want u to know you`re blowin it.
Ok see, boo, reconciliation was in the plan/but you need to grow up some more and start acting like a man/When I told you how I felt you just brushed me off/Told me I was trippin and my thoughts were my friends fault/Yeah I do talk to thembut my decisions are all mine/I wanted to see where we’d be, to wait until due time/
You said you felt the pressure of my feelings was so real/I told you that the pressure was off, you needed time to heal/An ex you had, played games with you, manipulated your mind/A love like that you wanted but thought you’d never find/In me you saw all the things that made you love her so/Then as quick as she came she was gone, you thought you made her go/I never played a game with you, never once did lie/I liked the fact you seemed to care whether I laughed, or cried/
But you listened to your boys and let them in your head/The truth I thought was that you rather be with them instead/There were plenty of times you left the house, I didn’t want you to go/So I sat at home waiting you, watching seconds on the clock flow/It’s a shame I let you in, let you in my heart/I didn’t choose for us to be this way/To be in each others end and start/Hopefully we’ll understand where each intent does lie/
But at this time I can’t let your insults to me just fly/I know I have been the best friend you’ve ever had/The time we spent with each other made us feel so glad/So I know in my heart that one day the way we feel will blend/Until that day I now that I at least will be your friend.
“THE GRADUATE” (It helps if you play the “Pomp and Circumstance” song they play at graduations in your head when you read it.)
What you taught me, was -
how to love myself. Not in your representation of
but in your lack
thereof.
What you taught me – was -
how to respect me, be me, be free, that it’s all about me and I give a gotdamn what YOU think about it
Once again
not in your representation, no
but in the slap in my face
kick in my ass
punch in my mouth and
stab in my back
of your lack
of respect for me
What you taught me, was -
I am more whole WITHOUT you, than I ever was WITH you and
I need not define the essence of myself in you by having some sadistic pride in
finishing your sentences and knowing that you don’t like onions in your food or
what your favorite movie, color, soap, snack, or…that you like to … hit it from the back…
Just because you know a lot about somebody doesn’t mean you really KNOW
that somebody
What you taught me, was -
I am my OWN inspiration, not YOUR creation
Sure, you gave a sista some game, I’ll give you that but
like a Pimp, you never taught me how to use it
See the truth is I am the P.I.M.P. now
Primarily Invested in My Priorities and n*gga, YOU
…..aint one of them
So, what you taught me – IS -
I’ve learned everything I need to know
and now I’m a graduate from the school of
“I ain’t f*cking with you no more”
